Chantelhart's Page

just a few more weeks and i will graduate
wow, I can't believe this is finally coming to an end
It's strange to think that a couple of years ago
I walked into the office of the local college just to get some information
I walked out as a student
one class was all it took.....psychology
I was addicted
I've attended many classes since then
all summer long I've devoted not to my children
but to my education
my hard work has paid off in many ways
scholarships, awards
just last week I attended an awa… Continue

today was a sad and glorious day
I said goodbye to my dear friend carly
oh yes, that was her name
i remember when she first came into my life
i gave her the name carly after carly simon
your so vain is the tune that filled my head
while we road together over the mountains
she was there for me during the worst times of my life
we danced together
I trusted her
my life was in her hands
she heard many scandalous conversations without
repeating any of my most sacred of desires
she comforted me when m… Continue

Anger is what I feel right now...rage.
I want to inflict pain but I can't.
I don't understand it.
The ones you love the most
hold the most power over you.
They can rip you apart in a second.
The worst part is the forgiveness that's expected.
How could I forgive such a terrible thing?
How could they want that from me after what they did?
Anger and confusion consumes me
leaving little room for anything else.....fuck!

...Most importantly I am a mother.
There are three of the most beautiful children in the world that call me mom.
They look up to me for everything that is good.
I shelter them from harm and give them a love that seems to be lacking in the lives of many children these days.
When they hurt themselves, I am there to fix it with my magical kiss.
When they are tired and cannot sleep, I am the ship that carries them to a sea of dreams.
To my sons, I am a standard by which they will find their future w… Continue

one little crack in the mold
anything can move in
oh how the devil is creative
wraps it in a beautiful bow
the integrity of the wall is broken
and like that...it's gone
everything within is exposed
the branches are on fire
snap snap snap
there is pain all around
beautiful
no one can hear the screams of the one who is dying inside
there is no help
never
silence little sparrow
you have no voice